Ever since me and Luke moved in together around a year and a half ago, we’ve spent pretty much all of our spare time together and I’m rarely alone.
Luke has been alone in the house while I’ve been away with my mum but in the year and a half we’ve lived in our first home, I’ve never stayed here alone.
This weekend that all changed when Luke went away with his friends for a couple of days.
While this may not seem like a big deal to a lot of people, it was a big thing for me. I’m scared of the dark and if I hear any kind of noise in the house I am the first person to freak out.
But this weekend I stayed 3 nights in my house alone. At the age of 26, being scared of that might seem a bit lame to some, but I am so proud of myself for it. And you know what, I actually quite liked it.
I proved to myself that I am fine alone, I can look after the house and not be a complete scaredy cat overnight!
I’ve also really enjoyed just doing my own thing. When there’s two of you, you always have to fit in with one another and take the other person’s wants and needs into consideration. And while I wouldn’t change living with Luke for the world, it’s been quite nice to just do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted.
Watching TOWIE from morning till night? Why the hell not.
Browsing the shops for as long as I like? What a dream.
Sleeping in until a time I think is reasonable on a weekend? Of course.
Having to do all the housework? Yeah maybe not that one so much.
This weekend I feel like I’ve got a little bit of extra independence and belief in myself. I feel like I’ve got this and I can deal with being a real adult in my own home, something I didn’t actually know for definite before now.
I suppose everyone reaches milestones at different times in their lives because of different circumstances and I think this weekend has been my moment to feel like a fully fledged adult. I’ve flown the nest, I can cope by myself and in the words of Destiny’s Child ‘All the women who are independent. Throw your hands up at me’
jacket – TOPSHOP | jeans – TOPSHOP | jumper – H&M
boots – H&M | hat – TOPSHOP | sunglasses – NEW LOOK
But don’t get me wrong, I cannot wait for Luke to get home tonight. Absence really does make the heart grow fonder. And there’s nothing quite like living with your best friend every day.