Long time no speak eh. It’s been almost two months since my last blog post so I thought it’s about time I check back in and get my life back in order. I don’t really know where this post is going to go because I’ve never really written anything like this, so here’s just a random jumbling of word vomit that comprises my life over the past two months.
Essentially, life got pretty shit at the end January when my nan unexpectedly fell ill and then after a short time in hospital passed away at the start of February. It makes me so upset just typing that, but thats what happened and that’s the reason I’ve been pretty much absent from my blog/YouTube/Twitter/Instagram for quite a while. I was very close to my nan so it’s been really hard to deal with shit over the the last few weeks, hence not really feeling up to being online much. As much as other people go into detail about their grief or how they deal with this kind of thing, I find grief very personal and don’t like to splash it about, so I’m just going to leave it at that. The circle of life is a fucker and I miss her so bloody much.
On a completely insignificant scale in comparison to that, the past couple of months have also included a leaky boiler, a bathroom floor tile cracking in half randomly whilst no one was in the room, being declined for credit to buy a new phone (which was rectified after 3 further trips to Apple and giving them my new address instead of my old one), one of Luke’s best friend’s stag do being booked for the same weekend we’re already committed to going to Austria for my best friend’s wedding at which I’m a bridesmaid, the puffer coat from my last post getting ruined in the wash, and finding out my car needs an MOT, service and road tax this month to aid in bleeding my bank account dry.
So my end-of-January up to now has been downright crap. But I don’t want this to be all doom and gloom because I also have so many things to be grateful for and look forward to this year which is what’s helping me to keep moving forward right now.
I have the most wonderful family that I couldn’t have done the past several weeks without. I have an inspiring and incredibly brave mum. I have the most amazing and supportive boyfriend I could ever ask for. We are lucky enough to own our own home and the past 6 months living here together have been so good. We booked a ‘fuck it, life is short’ holiday to Mexico for next month to explore a new part of the world. I have a great group of friends who are always there for me. I have the cutest dog ever who is always there to cuddle when I need a pick me up. And I have my health.
There are probably so many more things I could name but those are just the few that have got me through everything. That and a copious amount of Netflix, Amazon Prime, BBC iPlayer etc. etc.
This is perhaps one of the most personal blog posts I’ve ever written, and I probably won’t read it through for typos or grammar because it will upset me. And me not checking for typos and grammar is pretty unheard of as the ‘grammar police’ of my department at work. I don’t even know what the point of this post is, maybe to just give a reason why there’s been almost radio silence from me, maybe to acknowledge how shit I’ve felt, or maybe just to show a little more depth behind my usual basic posts.
Either way, thank you for reading if you’ve got this far. Normal (I don’t even know what normal is round here anymore to be frank, I really need to get some sort of blog plan back in place) programming will resume as of Friday, so see you then chaps.